To answer everything.
1. History is recorded with the bias of the victors, and with that, it can be rewritten to exclude things that would be better buried. I give them enough credit to not rewrite everything. I have heard credible rumours that it is different behind the scenes, and some of the crankiness is no doubt in part to people like me in there twisting the knife, giving them the proverbial kick up the arse.
2. Certain debates have been resurrected there by one of our favourite commentators here, peddling the same lines as before. I particularly liked the way he was kind enough to insinuate that I have no life (as opposed to having multiple responsibilities to answer to) and that I'm blinded by my experience when it comes to having ideas and building things.
3. The whole me-on-sm.org thing... I'm coming to the conclusion that it is because I hold on to things too much. It's part of what makes me who I am, what drives my ability to be passionate about what I do. And it hurts like crazy to be like that; I wouldn't be at all surprised if what I've been feeling lately is stress induced.
Time after time, I said to myself I'd stop, and time after time, I gave them a second chance, and a third, and more. And I don't know why, but I did.
Then I see the BS over there, the snide comments from people in no position to pass judgement on me, from people who claim to stand on high in positions of responsibility but do not deserve to be there, from people who have contributed fragments of time here or there. Those who stood by SMF, I have respect for, even if I don't entirely agree, but there are those who went and returned and somehow gained positions of responsibility without really having earned it from where I'm standing.
I do not like what I see over there, I like the future of SMF even less with some of the attitudes being displayed, of over zealous moderators, of ideological preachers and ultimately an astounding lack of vision and balls.
I have seemingly been re-granted the ability to edit and remove my posts, without my asking, but I won't use it. Removing posts was slightly petty and smacks of trying to rewrite history somewhat, and in some ways I'd rather leave them there because it will serve as a reminder of things gone by, as a reminder of things to do and not to do.
So, my plan is to take the rest of tonight off, before getting on with some coding for Wedge tomorrow, and just maybe proving that I'm above a certain Texan's snide jibes by actually being a visionary, though I don't think I ever let my experience cloud my vision.